I really appreciate your words, the thing is...I had a bad experience..a really bad one which has marked me awfully...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/ariadnascrp/13008.html it's here.. I mean...it happened once, and after that I feel like I'm shuned...I hate to feel like that.. and now...I better stop...really, maybe later I can give it some more thought