Mood

[ariadnem]

These past few days have sucked more than I could have imagined.  I should be more than happy; I mean, I'm back to work, I finally "finished" my website, I got in Nanowriye, my hubby as wonderful as always, things are working out perfectly...*sigh*

I've got this sensations within...I don't know; something really wrong must be happening inside.  I feel all this excitement about doing some new stuff; and playing and all that, but again, when I sit here in the pc...my mind goes blank...I hate it, especially now...it's worst than ever before.  However, I go to my classroom and I forget about everything...my Sanctuary, that's my classroom, but it has to be over...everything has to be over...eventually.

Now...writing has become something more than just a hobby.  I mean, I don't pretend to become a professional writer.  My knowledge in the field is really limited (one semester of English Literature in College), but I so want to learn how to do it.  I want to improve more and more eveery day but it seems I'm not even getting closer to doing that. *sigh*

I know, Vane, I know...still, I just can't believe it...

I've received all sort of critics about my stories.  A lot of them have been really nice, some others...I'm hopeless, I always end up sobbing, wondering what is it that I have done wrong.  I've written things that I don't even check...I just put them on paper, then I start working on them.  I always double check, sometimes, I just don't...still, no matter if I try to make it fine or not...all those reviews affect me.  I try to take them as, "ok, see what's the problem, and solve it" sometimes I don't even have a clue about it...anyhow...everything comes and goes...so will I. It's just..painful to realise that my mistakes seem to be forever unforgiven *sigh*

My Nanowriye session has begun.  I've been thinking about uploading it here...still don't know.  We'll see.

I'll keep writing.  Whoever wants to say anything about it, well, go to my website and give me some feedback.  I'll take it all, I always do.  Besides, who says learning is easy ??? (well, I do, when I say that to my students.)

Now, on better news I PASSED MY ADVANCED ENGLISH PROFICIENCY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Ohh yes, I screw it a lot, but hey! the ones who know say I HAVE PASSED!!!!!!! and that's good news, right?

 

Comments

[vane-nt.livejournal.com]

"Now, on better news I PASSED MY ADVANCED ENGLISH PROFICIENCY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

Congratulations!!!! ^__^

"I mean, I don't pretend to become a professional writer. My knowledge in the field is really limited (one semester of English Literature in College), but I so want to learn how to do it."

I don't think it is about knowledge. Of course one can never know enough, knowledge is a precious thing indeed, but it that's not really the point in this case. In my opinion you're just trying to invent excuses to justify the fact that you don't believe you could be a professional. -___-

"I know, Vane, I know...still, I just can't believe it..."

Someday you will. ^^ I only hope it wont take too long. ^^UUU

"My Nanowriye session has begun. I've been thinking about uploading it here...still don't know. We'll see."

Good luck in your session! ^____^ Since it is an original story, if I were you I wouldn't upload it here, but rather keep it and register it in the proper place. But it's up to you.

As for feedback, take it easy. It is good, but you shouldn't become a slave for your reviewers. Keep in mind that many of the comments you receive just won't help you at all, because they are either empty (even when they sound so nice) or plainly rude (which makes them irrelevant in most cases). I know you want to learn and improve, but try to be selective when deciding which reviews will be of use or not.

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

Thank you ^^!!!!!!

"In my opinion you're just trying to invent excuses to justify the fact that you don't believe you could be a professional."

I guess you're right. I've been thinking about it since I read it...and yes, I really think you're right. maybe by thinking so low of me I won't have to face failure. Maybe I would just...take things as they come and not to think about people's silences, or bad comments...*sigh*

"if I were you I wouldn't upload it here, but rather keep it and register it in the proper place."

What do you recommend. I'm too new in this, I don't know where I could register it or what to do with it (shame on me)

"As for feedback, take it easy."

I try, believe me, but sometimes it's awful. At least I know abput some people who are really honest with me and really want to help me out to improve...others...I just don't know.

We'll see. I won't leave it all to fate; but at least I'll try to relax.

Thanks, My Lady.

[vane-nt.livejournal.com]

You're welcome. ^_^

"What do you recommend. I'm too new in this, I don't know where I could register it or what to do with it (shame on me)"

Jeje, this is not a shame. I guess many writers who get used to publish their stuff for free on the internet never think about registration and the such. The problem is that each country has its own place and rules for registration of artistic pieces. Here in Brazil I know what one is supposed to do (we must send our pieces to the National Library, which incidentally is located in Rio de Janeiro, where I live). But I don't know how a writer must proceed in Colombia. :( You should try to research the subject on the internet. Maybe there is an agency linked to the Ministry of Education or Culture which is responsible for the registrations.