Mood

[ariadnem]

These past few days have sucked more than I could have imagined.  I should be more than happy; I mean, I'm back to work, I finally "finished" my website, I got in Nanowriye, my hubby as wonderful as always, things are working out perfectly...*sigh*

I've got this sensations within...I don't know; something really wrong must be happening inside.  I feel all this excitement about doing some new stuff; and playing and all that, but again, when I sit here in the pc...my mind goes blank...I hate it, especially now...it's worst than ever before.  However, I go to my classroom and I forget about everything...my Sanctuary, that's my classroom, but it has to be over...everything has to be over...eventually.

Now...writing has become something more than just a hobby.  I mean, I don't pretend to become a professional writer.  My knowledge in the field is really limited (one semester of English Literature in College), but I so want to learn how to do it.  I want to improve more and more eveery day but it seems I'm not even getting closer to doing that. *sigh*

I know, Vane, I know...still, I just can't believe it...

I've received all sort of critics about my stories.  A lot of them have been really nice, some others...I'm hopeless, I always end up sobbing, wondering what is it that I have done wrong.  I've written things that I don't even check...I just put them on paper, then I start working on them.  I always double check, sometimes, I just don't...still, no matter if I try to make it fine or not...all those reviews affect me.  I try to take them as, "ok, see what's the problem, and solve it" sometimes I don't even have a clue about it...anyhow...everything comes and goes...so will I. It's just..painful to realise that my mistakes seem to be forever unforgiven *sigh*

My Nanowriye session has begun.  I've been thinking about uploading it here...still don't know.  We'll see.

I'll keep writing.  Whoever wants to say anything about it, well, go to my website and give me some feedback.  I'll take it all, I always do.  Besides, who says learning is easy ??? (well, I do, when I say that to my students.)

Now, on better news I PASSED MY ADVANCED ENGLISH PROFICIENCY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Ohh yes, I screw it a lot, but hey! the ones who know say I HAVE PASSED!!!!!!! and that's good news, right?

 

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Sure!!!!! I feel honoured. ^^