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[ariadnem]

I thought i'd gone through all this and that the issue was over, yet I realise is not like that. And I hate the feeling of it...I never thought I was going to feel blue about all this again.

I don't belong anywhere in Internet. It feels horrible to know you don't belong to a place or to something. it's even worst when everything you do is simply not good enough. Or you simply don't d what others do.

I getting tired of all this; of these feelings *sigh* of everything.

There are people who have it all before their faces yet they don't see it. I wonder how many times something like this has happened to me before or will happen

anyhow...I better shut, don't want this to end up being bluer than I want it to be...

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I lost some important people myself. Most of them b/c of "that" other "friend". Talking again with hthem wasn't easy. We were all too wounded by her and b/c of her that we were afraid. She used to tell us different things to each, almost not letting us to have contact with each other; what she never knew was that I never bought everything she'd said and that i was talking to some of them behind her back.

These friends took their chances with me, and so did i, Ana and Joe for example...God how I love them.
Then, there was this other guy who was more hurt thatn anyone else, and we started talking and kind of healed each other at first; now Canek and I have been friends for over a year and the love and friendship we have for each other grows more everyday.
vane and Elena came back to my life as well...it wasn't easy, though.

I really wouldn't know what to do w/o them in my life & that kind of scares me to death. But...we are true friends, and it won't happen ever again. At least not with them.

This woman hurt me, yes. But she's lost more than I did when I decided to get her out of my life. She didn't lose me alone, she's also lost sm other wonderful people,. and as they say, her loss was my gain.

And let me tell you also: your fics rock!!!!!!!!

thanks *blush*