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[ariadnem]

I thought i'd gone through all this and that the issue was over, yet I realise is not like that. And I hate the feeling of it...I never thought I was going to feel blue about all this again.

I don't belong anywhere in Internet. It feels horrible to know you don't belong to a place or to something. it's even worst when everything you do is simply not good enough. Or you simply don't d what others do.

I getting tired of all this; of these feelings *sigh* of everything.

There are people who have it all before their faces yet they don't see it. I wonder how many times something like this has happened to me before or will happen

anyhow...I better shut, don't want this to end up being bluer than I want it to be...

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[sagakure.livejournal.com]

*reads it* @_@;; Oh...
I've had many bad experiences in life too, but they also taugth me that people who envy you and insult you or try to hurt your feelings don't deserve your attention.

I know it's hard to follow advice, but I do mean that you should just be yourself and try to have fun, do the things that you like, not for anyone but because you like them, develop your writing skills as you like and all, but don't push youself into doing or not doing something because of people. People can be really mean.
If they try to hurt you, ignore them. (or defend yourself, then ignore them later, *lol*)

Sorry, like I said, I'm not very good at finding the right words, but I've been through very bad experiences too in the past (in RL and in the internet), and they have horribly marked me. But I believe that if you carry on the scars, it's like a little victory for the people who hurt you...so you gotta try to heal in order that they can't affect you anymore... Uhm, that thing about "the best revenge one can get it to become happier than those who try to hurt you". ^^

You're not shunned. Don't ever let people make you believe that. ^_~
My personnality is very similar to Saga's (with a bit of Camus for the being all closed up), so I tend to think that when people hurt me, it's kind of my fault... but that's not right. Don't let people make you believe that.
You can find a place where you'll get that feeling of belonging. ^^/

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

I think I've never defended myself against anyone's attack, others yes, not myself. I know who I am and who i'm not. I might be really insecure about my writing, but I'm way too secure about myself in terms of what people do to me.

I can put up with a lot 'till I'm fed up w/ stuff and send everything to hell. Just like I did with that b****. (sorry, after so long, I cvan't find another way of calling her)

I love writing and enjoy it greatly< more after I wrote that post I showed you yesterday. I know I have no one but myself to please, but it's always nice when someone else enjoys it.

"the best revenge one can get it to become happier than those who try to hurt you"

mmmmm...seeing from that POV...I've got my revenge, haven't I?

You can find a place where you'll get that feeling of belonging.

^^

Thank you so much, your words have really helped me.

[sagakure.livejournal.com]

I'm happy I could help, at least a bit. ^_^/

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

You did ^^