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[ariadnem]

I thought i'd gone through all this and that the issue was over, yet I realise is not like that. And I hate the feeling of it...I never thought I was going to feel blue about all this again.

I don't belong anywhere in Internet. It feels horrible to know you don't belong to a place or to something. it's even worst when everything you do is simply not good enough. Or you simply don't d what others do.

I getting tired of all this; of these feelings *sigh* of everything.

There are people who have it all before their faces yet they don't see it. I wonder how many times something like this has happened to me before or will happen

anyhow...I better shut, don't want this to end up being bluer than I want it to be...

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Why would I get mad???

"THAT" post...I mentioned it to Sagakure 'coz my all rant began b/c of her. She brought unease to my life & to others' and that unease in terms of fandoms and stuff is what I'm dealing with. Others'...mine...that bitch is past, one I don´t want back. EVER. And yes, we were talking about the same a******.

She doesn't weight on me like that anymore. My systems ignores her naturalle, but I've still have to come to terms with some stuff like the belonging thing.

I've said it before, I'm in the middle of fandoms; Spanish, English even French, even though I'm not planning on writing in my 3rd language.

Belonging is not worth you say, I agree, but that belonging is also given to me by my 'friends'. Aurea said in her LJ she felt behind. I guess that's what triggered my feeling. It's hard to feel behind, it's even worst when you look around and see yourself alone. No one in front or behind. As I've said also on this post, I'm not sure how many times things have been before me and I haven't seen the,. This is clearly one of those.

Maybe now, me and my paranoia would see more people around..who knows?