Look, this year life has been hard on me. It's made me go through so much s*** not only at home, but also at work and in pretty much every single aspect in it that sometimes I've felt I can't take another blow. I've burnt many bridges, I've lost people and pets dear to me, I've been about to lose everything that's important to me, and so many others, that for the first time in my whole life, I've felt like I'm worth nothing. I have cried more than ever before and after having a nice peaceful life, I don't want to fall into this.
Life, however, has also brought nice things to me (much less than the previous ones, but nice nonetheless) and I think that's what's shown me the light in the middle of so much darkness. I've got Elessar and Erendil, María José, Sofía and now Miguel Angel (my nieces and nephew) were born, I had my writing course, and most importantly, I met and re-encountered people, plus some other things. So, not everything was bad.
I guess that's why I'm writing this. I wanted to say I'm sorry for all the depressive things I've written on my LJ and which have flooded your flists. This is not me, nor the person I want to become. I also wanted to say, thank you so very much for being there, for putting up with me and most of all, for those of you who've taken a chance to get to know me, for loving me. This is the only place where I can feel safe enough (besides my hubby, of course) to vent and come and cry and scream and rant and tell the world to f*** off. But it's also a place where I've felt loved and accompanied, and that, is priceless.
Well, that's it. Now, come here *hugs*
Life, however, has also brought nice things to me (much less than the previous ones, but nice nonetheless) and I think that's what's shown me the light in the middle of so much darkness. I've got Elessar and Erendil, María José, Sofía and now Miguel Angel (my nieces and nephew) were born, I had my writing course, and most importantly, I met and re-encountered people, plus some other things. So, not everything was bad.
I guess that's why I'm writing this. I wanted to say I'm sorry for all the depressive things I've written on my LJ and which have flooded your flists. This is not me, nor the person I want to become. I also wanted to say, thank you so very much for being there, for putting up with me and most of all, for those of you who've taken a chance to get to know me, for loving me. This is the only place where I can feel safe enough (besides my hubby, of course) to vent and come and cry and scream and rant and tell the world to f*** off. But it's also a place where I've felt loved and accompanied, and that, is priceless.
Well, that's it. Now, come here *hugs*
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Date: 2007-12-07 05:51 pm (UTC)No te preocupes si estás triste o feliz o enojada, estás acá y no importa cómo te sientas, puedes contar conmigo ^^ Y a mí me alegra saber de ti y que quieras compartir lo que te pasa conmigo. No importa lo que eso sea.
*hugs more*
-Sei.
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Date: 2007-12-08 01:06 am (UTC)*hugs back*
Te quiero mucho, Macarena. Y es una lástima que nos hayamos perdido tanto tiempo, pero es una bendición saber que nos hemos reencontrado.
*glomps*
Gracias por estar allí siempre. Sabes que aquí estoy para tí también, ¿verdad?
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Date: 2007-12-08 10:24 pm (UTC)^_____^
También me alegra que me hubieses escrito después de todo lo que pasó con la Doña y tal. Siempre me caíste muy bien.
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Date: 2007-12-07 05:54 pm (UTC)No te disculpeees! :D si fuera cuestion de todos poner cosas bonitas y alegres, nadie escribiriamos journals, chica! ^*^
Que bueno que estes mas contenta y que hayas visto lo bueno de la vida tambien
un bso y sigamos adelante :D
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Date: 2007-12-08 01:07 am (UTC)Atrás, ni para coger impulso, como se dice en mi tierra *abraza*
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Date: 2007-12-07 07:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-12-08 01:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-12-07 07:42 pm (UTC)We're here to listen through the bad times, the same as we're here to smile in the good.
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Date: 2007-12-08 01:09 am (UTC)That's wonderful to know. And if it makes your heart feel as warm as mine is feeling right now, it's even better.
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Date: 2007-12-07 09:11 pm (UTC)*Hugs back*
Grá mór.
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Date: 2007-12-08 01:11 am (UTC)Grá mór, mo cara.
*luvs*
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Date: 2007-12-08 07:10 pm (UTC)I'm glad to be your friend, and we've been there for each other since day one, haven't we?
Of course you'd've made it, but if I made your journey through this year any easier, well, that's what friends are for, no?
Grá mór, mo chroí.
*luvs back*
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Date: 2007-12-08 12:05 am (UTC)hasta el fin nena *kiss*
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Date: 2007-12-08 01:12 am (UTC)Gracias Au.
Besos ^^
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Date: 2007-12-08 01:55 am (UTC)No te disculpes, aquí te leeremos y, aunque no comentemos, te apoyamos en espíritu.
*huggles*
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Date: 2007-12-08 02:40 am (UTC)*smooch*
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Date: 2007-12-08 07:53 pm (UTC)Hugs for you! Espero que el fin de semana te este tratando bien.
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Date: 2007-12-09 07:34 pm (UTC)*hugs back*