Well...

[ariadnem]

Look, this year life has been hard on me.  It's made me go through so much s*** not only at home, but also at work and in pretty much every single aspect in it that sometimes I've felt I can't take another blow.  I've burnt many bridges, I've lost people and pets dear to me, I've been about to lose everything that's important to me, and so many others, that for the first time in my whole life, I've felt like I'm worth nothing.  I have cried more than ever before and after having a nice peaceful life, I don't want to fall into this.

Life, however, has also brought nice things to me (much less than the previous ones, but nice nonetheless) and I think that's what's shown me the light in the middle of so much darkness.  I've got Elessar and Erendil, María José, Sofía and now Miguel Angel (my nieces and nephew) were born, I had my writing course, and most importantly, I met and re-encountered people, plus some other things.  So, not everything was bad.

I guess that's why I'm writing this.  I wanted to say I'm sorry for all the depressive things I've written on my LJ and which have flooded your flists.  This is not me, nor the person I want to become.  I also wanted to say, thank you so very much for being there, for putting up with me and most of all, for those of you who've taken a chance to get to know me, for loving me.  This is the only place where I can feel safe enough (besides my hubby, of course) to vent and come and cry and scream and rant and tell the world to f*** off.  But it's also a place where I've felt loved and accompanied, and that, is priceless.

Well, that's it.  Now, come here *hugs*

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