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[ariadnem]

I thought i'd gone through all this and that the issue was over, yet I realise is not like that. And I hate the feeling of it...I never thought I was going to feel blue about all this again.

I don't belong anywhere in Internet. It feels horrible to know you don't belong to a place or to something. it's even worst when everything you do is simply not good enough. Or you simply don't d what others do.

I getting tired of all this; of these feelings *sigh* of everything.

There are people who have it all before their faces yet they don't see it. I wonder how many times something like this has happened to me before or will happen

anyhow...I better shut, don't want this to end up being bluer than I want it to be...

Comments

[sagakure.livejournal.com]

T_T
Uhm...if it helps at all, there's people who like you, out here on LJ.

We don't know each other much, but I know what you are talking about. I hope you feel better. ^^/
I felt like that in the past too, long time ago.
You don't need to do what the other people do to be liked. ^_^/
This might sound a bit cliche, but I mean it : just be yourself, and do what you like, and what makes you have fun. ^_~ You'll end up finding people who have similar interests. The feeling of belonging somehwere ends up coming naturally when you enjoy what you're doing and have fun. ^^

I hope it helped a bit, sorry if it didn't. I kinda suck at finding the right words to comfort someone. ^^;

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

I really appreciate your words, the thing is...I had a bad experience..a really bad one which has marked me awfully...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/ariadnascrp/13008.html it's here.. I mean...it happened once, and after that I feel like I'm shuned...I hate to feel like that.. and now...I better stop...really, maybe later I can give it some more thought

[scorpioyue.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, I read about it! I know it's hard to hear when people say bad things to you, because you can't stop wondering why did they say that or if they're right even in a tiny bit. But please, ignore the stupid things that some people say! You really don't know how much it bothers me this kind of people that have no respect for others' feelings! >:(

Internet is such a wide and large place... It's hard to find a place where you belong. Just be yourself. Know that there are people who do care. :)

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

It's hard to find a place where you belong. Just be yourself.

I used to feel that I belong somewhere. I had my friends and I lost them, then I got some of them back. That was tough and I certainly didn't like that experience which btw was a consequence of that "woman's" doing. Anyhow...

I am who I am. I've got a friend who describes nme as someone caring, loving and sort of depressive. I don't tend to get blue often. I've discovered it happens to me b/c of my writing or people's indiference (whether that's towards me or stuff)

Know that there are people who do care

I'm sorry you've had to put up with me. (sorry for any future time as well.)

Thanks

[scorpioyue.livejournal.com]

Don't worry. We all have times like this. ;_;

By the way, I already finished your request. It's posted at my lj. ^^U

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

Thank you

I'm checking your LJ right the way

[sagakure.livejournal.com]

*reads it* @_@;; Oh...
I've had many bad experiences in life too, but they also taugth me that people who envy you and insult you or try to hurt your feelings don't deserve your attention.

I know it's hard to follow advice, but I do mean that you should just be yourself and try to have fun, do the things that you like, not for anyone but because you like them, develop your writing skills as you like and all, but don't push youself into doing or not doing something because of people. People can be really mean.
If they try to hurt you, ignore them. (or defend yourself, then ignore them later, *lol*)

Sorry, like I said, I'm not very good at finding the right words, but I've been through very bad experiences too in the past (in RL and in the internet), and they have horribly marked me. But I believe that if you carry on the scars, it's like a little victory for the people who hurt you...so you gotta try to heal in order that they can't affect you anymore... Uhm, that thing about "the best revenge one can get it to become happier than those who try to hurt you". ^^

You're not shunned. Don't ever let people make you believe that. ^_~
My personnality is very similar to Saga's (with a bit of Camus for the being all closed up), so I tend to think that when people hurt me, it's kind of my fault... but that's not right. Don't let people make you believe that.
You can find a place where you'll get that feeling of belonging. ^^/

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

I think I've never defended myself against anyone's attack, others yes, not myself. I know who I am and who i'm not. I might be really insecure about my writing, but I'm way too secure about myself in terms of what people do to me.

I can put up with a lot 'till I'm fed up w/ stuff and send everything to hell. Just like I did with that b****. (sorry, after so long, I cvan't find another way of calling her)

I love writing and enjoy it greatly< more after I wrote that post I showed you yesterday. I know I have no one but myself to please, but it's always nice when someone else enjoys it.

"the best revenge one can get it to become happier than those who try to hurt you"

mmmmm...seeing from that POV...I've got my revenge, haven't I?

You can find a place where you'll get that feeling of belonging.

^^

Thank you so much, your words have really helped me.

[sagakure.livejournal.com]

I'm happy I could help, at least a bit. ^_^/

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

You did ^^

[lady-hook.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear (and read) that you have suffered because of someone's mean jealousy...There are some people that really have that kind of 'gift' so that they can hurt people so much and make them feel unsecure and vulneralbe...I know that feeling of betrayal and unbelonging,it happened also to me and I've lost what I have considered my best friends last year due to something like this that happened to you.The thing is that they were not real friends,they hid their jealousy only to bite me with it when I less expected it,when I really needed their help.These people can hurt in such a way that they leave you wondering what you have done to deserve that,if there's something wrong inside you to be hurt so much...
I tell you, the thing that can lift you up from this situation is the strength you will find in the people who really really love you,and these people are the ones who stick with you whatever happens.
And let me tell you also: your fics rock!!!!!!!! ^___^

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

I lost some important people myself. Most of them b/c of "that" other "friend". Talking again with hthem wasn't easy. We were all too wounded by her and b/c of her that we were afraid. She used to tell us different things to each, almost not letting us to have contact with each other; what she never knew was that I never bought everything she'd said and that i was talking to some of them behind her back.

These friends took their chances with me, and so did i, Ana and Joe for example...God how I love them.
Then, there was this other guy who was more hurt thatn anyone else, and we started talking and kind of healed each other at first; now Canek and I have been friends for over a year and the love and friendship we have for each other grows more everyday.
vane and Elena came back to my life as well...it wasn't easy, though.

I really wouldn't know what to do w/o them in my life & that kind of scares me to death. But...we are true friends, and it won't happen ever again. At least not with them.

This woman hurt me, yes. But she's lost more than I did when I decided to get her out of my life. She didn't lose me alone, she's also lost sm other wonderful people,. and as they say, her loss was my gain.

And let me tell you also: your fics rock!!!!!!!!

thanks *blush*